I am working at improving my eating habits. They stink and I’m the first to admit it. I’ve never enjoyed cooking for myself yet I’m a very capable cook. It’s frustrating. So while I’m not aiming to cook every night, I will try to prepare a meal a few times a week. Tonight’s effort reflected the hot weather. I determined to make something refreshing, healthy and edible. I succeeded. It looked a little funky but it was filling and tasty. I’m not immune to trying new things. I love carbs like rice and potatoes. I wanted a salad-type meal but also wanted a small amount of carbs. I ended up with some brown and red quinoa and dumped it on to the bed of lettuce. Joining it was some sliced cucumber, sliced chicken breast, and some fat-free cottage cheese. Normally I eschew the fat-free dairy products but the cottage cheese is good and doesn’t upset my stomach.
I found an unopened jar of salsa in the fridge, checked the expiration date, and used it as dressing for my salad. This is a huge departure for me. But it worked. A little later I’m looking forward to some pieces of watermelon.
I can’t begin to count how many times I’ve tried to improve my eating habits. I’m an over eater, sometimes a binge eater. To me, it’s a weakness and a character flaw. No matter how much I read about the psychology of overeating, I can’t help but blame myself. But I keep trying to make changes. And if this doesn’t work, I will try something else.
Four days in, my insulin dosage a far less than usual. I’m not feeling the increased energy yet but it’s day 4 and my system is still adjusting. However I’m wearing the old Fitbit again and exceeding my step goal each day so that’s a positive. As a once very active person, I’ve become very sedentary. The more I resist activity, the harder it becomes. No duh. I’m trying not to expect perfection because the disappointment sabotages me. I must remember that even if I make one small change per day, I’m on my way to better habits.
Thanks for letting me vent.