A new window is opening…

There is a popular expression seen in various forms.  I remember it most from “The Sound of Music.”  To paraphrase, “When God closes a door, somewhere He opens a window.”  Since I believe firmly in that idea, I suppose it’s why I’m not experiencing great sadness at the prospect of my retirement from teaching.  I view it as moving on to the next great thing in my life.

Speaking of moving on…this summer marks the first in more than ten summers that I will not be at Big Bowman. Making the decision wasn’t easy but it wasn’t terribly difficult either.  I had a great run at the lake and created loads of memories to add to those from my childhood.  But, as I keep reminding myself and am now believing, Jay Gatsby was correct in not going back.  It will never be the same.  I always “got it” in my head but am now absorbing it in my heart.

Truthfully I’ve spent far too much of my life being what I’ve felt others wanted me to be.  Due to circumstances beyond my control, I’ve HAD to be something that wasn’t the real me.  Though I’m still finding the “real” me, I now have the courage to embrace and recover my base personality.  It is indeed a humbling process.

Part of this awareness surrounds the fact that I put everything and everyone else first in my thoughts and feelings.  I am in the process of learning to put myself first and acknowledging that it doesn’t mean I’m selfish.  For years I’ve “managed” health issues without being proactive.  And I find myself in a situation now where I must do more than maintain the status quo.  I must take my health back.  That’s the tricky part.  It’s hard, harder than most things I’ve ever done.  I’m learning to make it a slow process but I’m not a patient person where I am involved.  Enough.

But I am working at it because this wonderful window is stretching forward before me.  And I’m excited, so excited.  Why?  Because I will be able to combine a few of my very best skills in my future endeavor.  I love history and research, I love making people happy and I love to write.

I give thanks for being allowed to enjoy Big Bowman for so long.  And I am more than thankful as I continue to watch the window to my wonderful future open wide. 

About thequarryschild

A self-described forensic junkie, Beth Anderson spends her days shaping young minds to ask critical questions and wonder “whodunit.” Beth resides in the Capital District of New York and spends her free time reading and solving the great mysteries. Her love of swimming, tennis and sports provides the basis for one of the lead characters in her new book The Quarry’s Child. Beth is one of the founding members of the Upper Hudson Valley Chapter of Sisters in Crime (aka Mavens of Mayhem), a graduate of the FBI Citizens Academy, a survivor of a visit to an active aircraft carrier while it was at sea, and a published poet in Soundings, a literary journal. Beth continues to instill a love for mystery fiction in her students as she has for over twenty years. Photo credit: Quinn Mulvey
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2 Responses to A new window is opening…

  1. Student says:

    Ms Anderson,
    You are an amazing individual who deserves nothing but hapiness in your life. You are such an inspiration to so many students and the high school will not be the same without you. I’m sure your plans for the future are amazing. I am sad that you are not here for the remainder of the year. I am graduating in June and thru college and my entire life i will always remember what you have taught me. I wish you the best of luck and much hapiness

    • First of all, I’d vastly prefer to be at school. It’s extremely frustrating to me that my health has failed me and, thus, failed my students. Regaining my health has become my new priority.

      Most of all, I’m very overwhelmed by your kind words. My goal as a teacher was to have a positive impact on kids and hope they would learn something from me…even if it was just to be kind to others.

      Thanks for weighing in, just wish I could thank you personally.

      Ms. A

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